Living as Trinity - Yet Another Interesting Blog

Living as Trinity

Besides being written by a woman in London, it intriques me that she included one of my favorite sayings in the description of her journal "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I am definitely living it right now. I really hate to say this, but it looks like the engagement is off.

While Brian is absolutely going to go back to Bay City, Michigan, I honestly can't see it right now. For better or for worse, my life is in the Woodlands right now. I have an immediate job opportunity here. There certainly is no guarantee back in Bay City. All I see is months and months of unemployment or working for minimum wage.

It is true that I miss my family an incredible amount. It is also true that I have always had great plans for my life. How do I want to put this?

I am willing to take risks, try new things in order to accomplish what I want to accomplish. Brian isn't. I must admit, I am incredibly crushed. I just don't know what else to do.

I haven't been myself in months. For once in my life, I see a future. I just wish Brian could see it as well. It could be his, if he would join me. I love him with all of my heart and soul. I just wish he could see it the way I see it.

I understand why he is incredibly upset and completely unsure of what to do. I have felt this way for months. Unfortunately, I have to stand my ground in order to save some shred of myself, my dreams.

Much, much more later.

Lindsey